Life right Now

It's close to summer..and the days are starting to blur together. so much work to do. And time isn't exactly in my favor. the sad thing is..work is the least of my problems. Family issues. Mistakes. It's not me, but...I'm learning a lot from it. i have this strange feeling...that makes me think..my childhood just ended. I never thought about my future in this light before. And I have a feeling it's going to be a hard life. So much wrong in the world..so much suffering. And I know that's only the half of it. i know there's good, because I know God's alive and well..and in charge. But right now, it's very difficult to see the better side. At this point, I wake up in the morning, and count down the hours beore I can sleep again. The only time I'm truly okay is when I'm at church, surrounded by people who are also in a good mood.
since I know no one really follows me here..I wanna make a promise to my parents, myself, and my God. I promise to do my very best in life...to see through what i begin...to make you proud of me..with all my heart, I don't ever want to fail miserably. and the beginning of failure is quitting what you start. so I won't ever quit. I promise!

Much love, bloggers.